Tempted to cheat

I am so wanting to just get skinny and get it over with... I'm thinking of trying the lemonade cleanse. I'm vegetarian so the amount of calories I eat are usually 160 per meal so I don't see the weight coming back once I lose it on the lemonade fast. I'll be munching fresh fruit and veggies for food during the fast to keep nutrients in my body.. just none of my soy meat replacements since those cals are much higher... yes, I'm losing inches but I weighed myself today and almost cried... 160... WOW! almost 30 pounds heavier than I've ever been in my LIFE! That's depressing... I'll let you know what happens... see you in a week for the weigh-in!